Monday, October 29, 2007
EXPLANATIONS........
Ok kids. I think I've worked some things out.
I still haven't caught up with my online biz, as a matter of fact this is the first online sojourn since the last post.
My fellow bloggers and artists on DA have been in my mind, but the reality of my current state has resulted in a kind of online impotence of late.
I do wonder what you're all up to and even feel some guilt about not posting or interacting.
The upcoming surgery has been my main goal for some time now and has been affecting me more than I've given it credit for.
From the initial joy of finding out that I have a set date I have gone through a few different emotional states.
Frustration, apprehension, depression, anger, optimism, resignation are probably the main ones.
The plans I have for the near future are all dependent on this operation happening on the 23rd of November.
I plan on going on a holiday to visit friends in Tasmania, Canberra, New South Wales and Queensland starting at the end of January.
I want to catch up with friends and family who have supported me through the last 19 months as well as get a break from this rehabilitation process.
( refer to Neil Peart's 'Ghost Rider' )
A course is also on the books, one that will teach me about techniques in film photography, such as developing.
Two goals I have for 2008 are to start doing paid photographic work and to put on an exhibition.
By far the prime one for next year is to complete my road to recovery.
Because the surgery is category 2 it means that the potential is there to for me to be lying in wait, fully prepped for surgery only to be told that someone has arrived with life threatening injuries and the theatre is required for them.
In that case my operation will go back onto the waiting list and I will face the same uncertainty and anticipation I'm going through at the moment, meaning all those plans go on the back burner, again.
Procrastination through no fault of my own.
In the last 19 months I have missed physio once and last Thursday I did a few exercises and then confided to my physiotherapist that I just could not get going.
It felt like having a box full of angels ( petrol head speak for a transmission where all the gears have parted company leaving nothing but neutrals, otherwise known as angel gear because that who you need if you encounter that situation at speed )
He suggested I give away physio for the next 3 weeks for mental health reasons and resume a more intense program post surgery.
I tended to agree with him.
Anyway, this weekend's upcoming Grampians Gonzo Grapple With Gravity Melbourne Cup Camping Spectacular will see me attempting some day walks in the bush.
I will get so much more out of this physically and emotionally than any physio session could hope to.
I've put about 6 rolls of film through Teh 'Hoff and will take more up at the Grampians, unfortunately no access to a decent scanner for the time being.
Enough waffling, I hope this goes some way to explaining my online absence.
Oh, and Snorkmaiden finally bought an apartment on Saturday and realised that she will get her weekends back instead of inspecting and bidding on properties.
That's taken over 6 months, just in time for her birthday tomorrow.
Happy birthday missy!!!
.
I still haven't caught up with my online biz, as a matter of fact this is the first online sojourn since the last post.
My fellow bloggers and artists on DA have been in my mind, but the reality of my current state has resulted in a kind of online impotence of late.
I do wonder what you're all up to and even feel some guilt about not posting or interacting.
The upcoming surgery has been my main goal for some time now and has been affecting me more than I've given it credit for.
From the initial joy of finding out that I have a set date I have gone through a few different emotional states.
Frustration, apprehension, depression, anger, optimism, resignation are probably the main ones.
The plans I have for the near future are all dependent on this operation happening on the 23rd of November.
I plan on going on a holiday to visit friends in Tasmania, Canberra, New South Wales and Queensland starting at the end of January.
I want to catch up with friends and family who have supported me through the last 19 months as well as get a break from this rehabilitation process.
( refer to Neil Peart's 'Ghost Rider' )
A course is also on the books, one that will teach me about techniques in film photography, such as developing.
Two goals I have for 2008 are to start doing paid photographic work and to put on an exhibition.
By far the prime one for next year is to complete my road to recovery.
Because the surgery is category 2 it means that the potential is there to for me to be lying in wait, fully prepped for surgery only to be told that someone has arrived with life threatening injuries and the theatre is required for them.
In that case my operation will go back onto the waiting list and I will face the same uncertainty and anticipation I'm going through at the moment, meaning all those plans go on the back burner, again.
Procrastination through no fault of my own.
In the last 19 months I have missed physio once and last Thursday I did a few exercises and then confided to my physiotherapist that I just could not get going.
It felt like having a box full of angels ( petrol head speak for a transmission where all the gears have parted company leaving nothing but neutrals, otherwise known as angel gear because that who you need if you encounter that situation at speed )
He suggested I give away physio for the next 3 weeks for mental health reasons and resume a more intense program post surgery.
I tended to agree with him.
Anyway, this weekend's upcoming Grampians Gonzo Grapple With Gravity Melbourne Cup Camping Spectacular will see me attempting some day walks in the bush.
I will get so much more out of this physically and emotionally than any physio session could hope to.
I've put about 6 rolls of film through Teh 'Hoff and will take more up at the Grampians, unfortunately no access to a decent scanner for the time being.
Enough waffling, I hope this goes some way to explaining my online absence.
Oh, and Snorkmaiden finally bought an apartment on Saturday and realised that she will get her weekends back instead of inspecting and bidding on properties.
That's taken over 6 months, just in time for her birthday tomorrow.
Happy birthday missy!!!
.
